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So i had an interview at M.A.C. the other day thanks to marie and sem talking me up to the manager. It went pretty good seeing as it was spur of the moment she said she is defenitely going to call me back for another interview. Amazing makeup discounts may be in order for me!!
Also fletch called me and has some brand new tattoo equipment this guy he knows doesnt want anymore cause he has no time for it.
those two things are both really amazing. And im going to tbay on monday.
Alkaline trio isnt playing. gay!
on a shittier note theres all this fucking shit in our house that needs to be fixed and the useless fucks hired to do it arent coming through.
oh ya and me and derek bought a condo.
were home owners now.
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Monday, October 10th, 2005
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Derek and I are back together.
This is the most right feeling i've ever felt.
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So last night I was just gonna go home from work until marie decided she wanted to get drunk. And I drank too thanks to a combined effort from marie and matty.
It was pretty exciting.
I went to centerfolds with matty and ryan after marie pussed out and went to sleep.
On the way home matty said he saw flames then we drove by and a house was on fire.
We watched it for about an hour and then got trapped between fire trucks and hoses. It was raining and i was cold.
Anyway that was my night and it was fun.
vanessa Lynn Fern Presenger.
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Fuck me!! i just co-wrote the best livejournal entry ever! then i accidentally erased it.
Alyssa: "cwooooo"(pigeon noise)
damn it.
Alyssa: "cwoo cwoo cwoo"(many pigeon noises off in the distance.)
bizzle
vanizzle'n'alyzzle
Alyssa:"you only wish you had a cutout family portrait. Gone, gone, gone, still here"
p.s.
i work at the apollo now its fun tomorrow will be my third day, come visit me.
Alyssa: "hey, i had pointy eyebrows then too"(holding up young picture of herself)
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Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
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Against me! was FUCKING AMAZING!!!!!!!
I can't even explain how good they sounded.
I appreciate them so much.
I want more tattoos!
vanessa lynn fern presenger
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Wednesday, May 25th, 2005
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So today started out shitty and i thought it would end shitty, but it didn't.
After i wrote my angry rant derek called me from work and yelled at me that really made me sad and it also sucked.
Then he apologized a couple times and so did I.
I don't think we can stay angry at each other for more than like an hour at max(which is awesome!).
After that my parents picked me up and we went for dinner.
After we ate we went to walmart(my favorite place on earth according to melizzle hahh).
Then we went to the casino for a couple of hours. It was so fun!! I didn't know I could have so much fun with my parents. It was the Casino that me and derek always call the god casino cause they always have fucked up shit on their marquee that sounds like church.
So that was my fun night. It doesn't sound so fun, but it made me so happy I think the happiest ive been all month. It made me realize how much i love my dad and when he says silly stuff or doesn't talk much like me sometimes or gets really excited over magic tricks and trailer park boys. Or my mom with her girlieness and her bleach blond poufy hair and louie vuillton purses and chanell wallet and tons of makeup(thats where i get it from!). Man I love my mom and dad. And I want Derek in my life forever boyfriend or not he is my best friend regardless!
Vanessa Lynn fern Presenger
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Don't you love when your boyfriend breaks up with you and then tells you thats coincidentally his ex girlfriend is moving to town for the summer.
I think somebody up there fucking hates me. Thats gotta be it.
Why does my life suck so fucking much right now. I want to scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I guess i wont care soon, but for right now i'm fucking pissed
so how does this sound to you?
-boyfriend breaks up with you out of nowhere
-all of a sudden starts talking to his ex girlfriend that he has said he FUCKING HATED or at least couldn't stand to be around and called allot of mean names for the last year and a half.(may i add he often rudely insulted her and said s.k.i.d whenever her name was mentioned. wow really makes me wonder how ill get talked about in the future or how im being talked about right now)
-now his ex girlfriend is moving to calgary for the summer!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
i think im gonna explode!
I don't know about anyone else but this sounds very strange to me.
I dont like it one bit.
I got reassured that nothing is going to or did happen but nothing derek says seems right to me.
Nothing he has said in the past seems right to me.
I desperately want to remain his best friend but i just dont know right now.
I'm not really sure of anything and its making me crazy.
I have so many different options and no time to make up my mind(something im not good at anyway).
I need input on this!!!!!!!!!!!! please!
I need to know if im over reacting or what i should think of all this.
I guess you dont really know all the sides of someone until they break up with you.
No one has never made me feel so unappreciated and unwanted one second and the next second so loved.
This sucks!
anyway i hate reading peoples live journals that sound like this so sorry but i couldnt help it.
vanessa lynn fern presenger
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Havent had a job in almost a month!
me and derek went to see star wars episode 3 yesterday it was good.
I still dont know what the fuck im doing, but i guess ill make up my mind in the next couple of days
The fact that i cant bring my cats to katies has made me rethink this whole going to tbay. Fuck.
I just need derek to get back to me on wanting to share a cheap ass house or not.
Its only 650 for a 2 bedroom house with EVERYTHING included.
Seems too good to be true! and my kitties could roam in the backyard.
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Thunder bay was pretty cool.
I dont really know what to do with myself right now but thats ok i guess.
Im trying super hard to be a happier more positive person.
I need to decide in the next couple of days what im gonna do and its so hard im so torn.
will someone please help me make up my mind!!!!!!!!!!!
I really wanna go to drunk girls gone bowling but i dont think ill be back in time. Boo!
vanessa lynn fern presenger
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Thursday, April 28th, 2005
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So i cant sleep right now and i kinda wanna die!
The one person who said they would never make me sad has made me feel more sad right now than i maybe have ever felt in my life.
I dont even know what to do.
The one sure awesome thing in my life is close to being gone and im freaking out.
I dont even know what went wrong and i dont know if i can fix it.
I desperately need lots of friends right now and i only have melissa which is awesome but i need alyssa too she always knows how to make me happy.
I need to try not to be such a bitch, but its hard sometimes.
I thought everything was good or at least fine. turns out i was so wrong.
I hate this so much and i just wanna stop crying and go to sleep, but i cant.
I need a big 20 minute hug and the only person here to hug me doesnt wanna be touched. finally after so long actually letting myself love someone unconditionally and being told they would never hurt me here it is. I dont think im ever gonna trust someone again. i said that before but everything hurt way more this time.
I know its not his fault, but fuck this really fucking hurts.
I really wish he could have figured this out before i fell head over heels for him.
Someone please kill me now!!! or give me a hug, or something!!!!
i really hope things are better tomorrow.
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I love my new job.
Making drinks is fun!
All I want is someone to order a martini!
working with melissa=fun and exciting and perhaps sexual.
I bought some M.A.C fluidliner today and I think its my new favorite thing in the world!
I went to buy a big ass pink purse but i couldnt find one i liked.
CATS FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
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| Time: | 2:54 pm. |
| Mood: |  content. | | Music: | sean paul-hot sexy punky. |
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it was me and derek's 1 year anniversary on the 14th
we went to the keg and then to see lemmony snickets
he bought me a whole bunch of tiger lillis their starting to open and they're pretty
i dont like any food at the keg!
i just remembered how much i love sean paul
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Saturday, March 12th, 2005
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So i enrolled for makeup artistry school in vancouver theres no turning back!!
Im excited though. im gonna make monsters and dead pple and shit. YESSSS!!!!
CHELSEA i miss you too its really sad we never talk.
Going to the hi-fi club tonight for jonelles birthday. im going with derek and melissa so im sure something insane will happen. I think were also gonna go to the killkenny cause its james friend cams bday too. its also dereks work friends going away party. I usually do absolutely nothing but theres a million things to do tonight. fun.
p.s.
im likely going to murder erin in chinook second cup.
and thank you melissa for being a total bitch to her for me.
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Monday, February 28th, 2005
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I have the best kitties in the land!
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Sunday, February 27th, 2005
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i was in a super negative mood earlier and i realized how negative my entry sounded but im not anymore cause SHAUNA IS MOVING HERE IM MAY!!!! FUCK YA!!!!IM SO HAPPY THAT WE CAN HANG OUT ALL THE TIME!!!!!
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| Time: | 2:35 pm. |
| Music: | Leftover Crack-with the sickness. |
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Ive come to realize a couple things
-all people do in thunder bay is drink. Its really sad!
-some people on livejournal make a lot of spelling mistakes(theres a spell check button. Yes i'm aware i hardly ever use punctuation so what)
-reading about how other peoples lives are so terrible and hearing complaining so much makes me mad and brings me down. also when people fish for compliments and its so so obvious so i'm gonna try really hard not to do any of those things.
-I CANT FUCKING BELIEVE HORRORPOPS ARE PLAYING IN T BAY!!!!!! I'M SO GOING!!!!I THINK ALYSSA IS TOO NEKROMAN!!!!NEKROMAN!!!
thats all.
Bizzle
p.s.
i'm gonna pretend i'm not sad that derek didn't call me when he was gone but i am kinda.
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Thursday, February 24th, 2005
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Fuck second cup. Fuck it in its stupid ass!
Worst job ever!!!!!!!
I so quit!!!!!
Worst week of my life!!
FUCK BEING A BARISTA!!!!!!!!!
Dear second cup,
I hate you. Fuck off.
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Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
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My cat is sick he keeps throwing up im really sad about it.
I need my mom to call so I can borrow money to take him to the vet.
Sad.
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Friday, January 28th, 2005
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Im in a really good mood right now
I talked to alyssa on the phone today for a long time it was really nice
melissa and me need to ahng out way more cause were fun together
MELISSA-we need to hang out more!!
i made derek a cake but i failed
hahha
i guess its the thought
p.s.
JAMIE: marie is not moving to toronto
hahah just joking your gonna kill me and melissa soon if we keep telling you that.
but shes not haha sorry
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Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
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Fuck!!
i wish i could just be happy where i live
or didnt think about moving every minute of the day
but oh no its not that easy
i do and its driving me crazy
poor derek, poor poor derek
i wish someone just made all my decisions for me
i hate making any decisions(alyssa if your reading this spiral or original kraft dinner hahhah)
i change my mind daily and i really hope one day that changes
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